ever feel like you're going crazy?
Thursday, March 08, 2007
Sometimes I feel like I'm losing my mind. Yeah, I guess people have said that to me jokingly all of my life, but the last few weeks it's been crazy the things I've forgotten.
Last week I went to fill up for gas on my way into work. I went inside to get a drink while the gas was pumping. When I came out I drove off. I don't remember taking the pump out of the gas tank. Later that day a co-worker of mine pointed out that my tank was open. I think I just drove off with the pump still in the gas tank. Thankfully it had to have been done pumping. I don't have a large tank.
Yesterday when I left work I realized I didn't have my keys. Since I had left my coat in the car, I figured maybe I left my keys there too. Yep, the door was unlocked and there they were in the ignition.. with the car still on. That's not the first time I've left the car on and walked away. It probably doesn't help that since it's a hybrid the engine usually shuts off, so I don't think about it if I sit in the car for a few minutes.
They events are laughable. What's not laughable is not even remembering that I forgot such obvious things. Even later I don't remember leaving the engine on or leaving the pump in the tank. I just know that's what had to have happened.
Matt says I must have been distracted and maybe I was. But I don't know why I'd be distracted more lately than usual. I'm not really under stress, but I do have trouble focussing. Lately when I re-read things that I've written I notice some of the words I've used are out of place. Perhaps that's the disctraction of writing at work. Or maybe my brain isn't quite finding the correct word.
Maybe it's all just part of getting older.
Thursday, March 8, 2007 at 10:56:00 AM CST
Umm... that *is* cause for concern, especially if it has happened enough times that YOU have noticed and are concerned.
You're not old enough for the hormonal shift thing yet, but body chemistry / metabolism / etc. does change with age.
Been stressed lately?
Thursday, March 8, 2007 at 3:32:00 PM CST
No, I haven't been stressed. Things have been going well. And I recently saw my endocrinologist, so it's not likely to be hormones or metabolism.
I've thought about seeing my regular doctor, but I don't want to go in and be given that look that doctors get when they think you're overracting or making things up.
Friday, March 9, 2007 at 6:52:00 AM CST
I've had that problem for years, low thyroid can cause short-term memory loss. So I use lots of coping mechanisms, like writing things down, stopping before leaving the car or the house, etc. But a sudden change should be checked out.
Friday, March 9, 2007 at 9:31:00 AM CST
I'll try being more focused, I think that will help a lot. I think lately I've been multi-tasking more often because of the nature of my job. I can only go so far with one then it's time to switch over to something else while I wait on X. I think I may be switching so much that I'm not paying much attention to what I'm doing while I'm doing it.